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Sunday, September 10th, 2006
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| Time: | 2:43 am. |
| Mood: |  tired. |
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should i write anything or not?
i dont think should..
other than...
life is good. i'm happy and in love and shit. i hate my job. for the first time in 2 years im back in school and making funky art projects. it feels great. it's strange how the highlight of my weeks is looking forward to going to class when 2 years ago i would have rather died then be in school. i hate my job A LOT. it's nice to be living on my own even though my money situation is really crappy right now. my boyfriend is the best thing pretty much ever... i never thought i would be in love again.
i still bite my finger nails. and pick my nose.
and im getting another tattoo on thursday.. i wonder how much boyfriends charge for tattoos.
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Saturday, January 21st, 2006
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i forgot i had this thing. it's crazy that i remembered my password.. amazing.
yes, well then. cheers.
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Monday, October 24th, 2005
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| Time: | 5:22 pm. |
| Mood: |  blah. |
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okay, i'm bored.
i'm so freaking busy having two jobs but i'm so bored with my life it's driving me crazy.
everyone i know is in a relationship which makes me lonely. none of my friends want to go out and do fun things anymore. they are my hommies and everything, but i need something to do with my boring nanny life.
i need someone to hang out and play. i'm seriously having trouble finding people who want to.
i gave into myspace.
www.myspace.com/sillyearthling
i dont like that i did cause that means im going to be spending more time on the computer then i want to. i just started it so it's boring with no color and fancy stuff. arararararrrrrr
Oh, MO- I can't get ahold of you so you need to call me so i can give you info about the wedding.
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Monday, October 10th, 2005
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I have been looking at people on MySpace all fucking day. I probably even saw you.
That shit is addicting. I don't have an account and I didn't want one until I saw all the sexy people. It's insane how many people are on it. Click one person you know and see how many people that you know that you didn't know knew them... yeah.. strange.
I'm lonely.
I want to be loved.
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Sunday, October 2nd, 2005
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| Time: | 5:13 pm. |
| Mood: |  confused. |
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Where in this Country do I want to be?
Oregon? Beautiful, fun and hippie/vegan <3
California? So big and so much to do.. but it might fall into the ocean. The earth moves a lot over there.
New Mexico? Great weed, beautiful woman, a neat school and aliens.
Airzona? A really awesome school I would love to go to. The beauty is breath taking.
Connectacunt? My friends and family.
I just cant make up my freaking mind.
Cat's dont like each other.
Vargas is the most adorable kitten.
Pup is fluffy and mean.
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Wednesday, September 14th, 2005
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I've been very sad and lonely.
So i bought myself a kittie! Today he is being a bastard, other than that he is the cutest thing ever.
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Thursday, August 25th, 2005
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6 weeks on the road
20 different states
countless memories, places, and people i will never forget.
I had the freaking time of my life.
Being back at home is such a strange feeling. I have been home for a week now, the first few days were the hardest. Once I hit Colorado I realized I was going home and i cried everyday. As excited as i was to see my friends and my family it was so hard for the trip to come to an end. With 200 dollars in my pocket i did not have much of a choice. And now the hard part is choosing a place i want to be. I left my heart on the West side of this country. I don't feel content in CT, not because I dont like it but because I have lived in the same house for 19 years and it's time to explore. Connecticut is actually a very beautiful state, it's just not for me anymore. I love Oregon, California, Arizona, and New Mexico. And Colorado. And Montana. And the accents in Minnesota and the Dakotas. There is so much more I want to see. I'm never going to be content in one place. Ever since I got home i have been bored out of my skull. Going from doing something different everyday, seeing a new state, and meeting new people to being at home and going to work and smoking countless amounts of cigarettes is depressing. I'm trying to find things to do. I decided to ride my bike everyday for 10 miles, that seems to help. I feel like a changed person, I really do. I'm still a pretty confused but for the most part I think I know what I'm living for.
I have a lot of pictures and a billion stories. I'm working on making a web page with them and i will indeed post the page so you can see some of the Country too.
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Tuesday, August 2nd, 2005
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So my first night in Cali I went to a queer party.
I met this wikced awesome girl who was really super cute and I was trying to be all sly when..
we decided to go on the trampoline and my glasses fell off and i landed right on them. They broke.
Then later on the deck i was taking a swig of beer and someone hit the bottle right into my mouth, i got beer all over me and chipped my tooth. Then the cops came and we had to leave so I didn't get to make out with the cute girl.
But i love California and I'm going to move here.
yum.
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Yes, so here I am in Portland Oregon. My most favorite place in the country. I have been here for almost 2 weeks. My road trip has come to a pause because of some crazy drama bullshit, but I'm happy the pause was here rather than Indiana or Ohio. On Wednesday I will be leaving here and going to California driving down the coast to Arizonia and New Mexico then up to Colorado then from there head back east. Then head back to Portland... because i love it here. Yes... road trips.
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Wednesday, June 8th, 2005
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Yes, so I'm leaving in a month for the road trip to Cali with Cassie and Talya. ONE MORE MONTH. I'm so excited. I cant wait to experience an adventure like this. So many people dream and wish they could have gone on a trip across the U.S and it's actually going to happen. I cant wait to see all the beauty, I cant wait to be where I have never been before. I'm ready to have some peace with my mind, it is in need of this more than anything. Cassie is more excited about "getting out of here", I just want to travel and learn. I'll be in the Redwood Forest on my birthday smoking 19 joints (and hopefully tripping on mushrooms) in a place that probably wont be there in the next 20 years. I'm going to get abducted by an alien in New Mexico and travel to another solar system. I'm ready to get mugged, and I am almost looking forward to it. I'm curious to my reaction if something like that did happen. New relationships, new environments, new gas stations, bugs, and attitudes. I get butterflys in my stomach just thinking about it.
Only one more month.
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Make a random list of 20 people you know and then see if you can answer the following questions about them....
1. Molly
2. Cassie
3. Dansmell
4. Jesse
5. Eric
6. Brendan
7. Amanda
8. Andrea M
9. Fritz
10.Ben
11.Tim
12.Chris
13.Andrew
14.Jeff
15.Tony
16.Laura
17.Brian
18.Scottie
19.Joey
20.Talya
Who is #8 going out with? This kid Matt.. he's okay except he didn't get her a birthday present which is mad weak.
Is #9 a boy or a girl? Fritz is mostly a man, not sure what the rest is.
Would #11 and #2 date? They talked for a few hours one time at my house about heroin and drug addiction. I don't think it would last.
How about #18 and #4? If they were gay.. they would be awesome together
What grade is #17 in? 14th
When was the last time you talked to #12? 3:30am this morning
What is #6's favorite band? I think Incubus..
Does #1 have any siblings? Yeah, Samsin
Would you ever date #3? No way! I would do her though.
Would you ever date #7? Oi, there was a time where I would have dated her.
What's #15's last name? Vulpe
What's #10's middle name? I dont know. What a bad friend I am.
What's #5's favorite thing to do? Eric enjoys smoking the reefer, fighting with his crazy girlfriend, skateboarding, sleeping, playing with his awesome turtle, and hanging out with me.
Is #13 hot? Not so much. He's a large, hairy, italian man.
Would #14 and #19 make a good couple? No, not even if they liked boys.
What school does #20 go to? A school in Boston for dancing. That's all I know.
Tell me a random fact about #11? Timmy broke his arm roller skating
And #3? She hated me for a few months.
Have you ever had a crush on #15? lol, we dated for 12 days. And I'm not talking about when we were in 7th grade, it was 2 months ago.
What's #4's favorite color? Yellow
Would you make out with #14? Naw
Are #5 & #6 best friends? As a matter of fact, yes they are.
Does #7 like #20? They never met.
Does #8 like #19? Strangers
How did you meet #2? I think I was a freshman in High School. We didn't start hanging out everyday for a year later.
How did you meet #18? Online.. and he's one of the coolest people in the world.
Does #10 have any pets? 3 cats, 1 dog. But no middle name.
Is #12 older than you? yep
Have oral relations with #3? we made out a few times.
Is #17 the sexiest person alive? He is pretty sexy
Does #2 have any cute siblings? Yeah. Danielle is pretty and wicked cool.
What about #16? She is an only awesome child.
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This is what I want to do as of today for the next few years.
I have been thinking about this a lot for some reason.
In May I have plans to go to Portland for a little vacation. I do really not like CT right now for lots of different reasons, plus I’m wicked sick of living here. I'm going for a vacation most definitely, but moving there is also a possibility. I'll have enough money to get a little place if i wanted to. Also, I'm almost positive that they have an Atlanta Bread out there so I can transfer and finding a job is easy as that. Plus I have wicked babysitting experience and I wouldn't mind being a nanny. Whether or not I'm in CT or OR I'm going to be working as much as I can so I can get my ass in Europe. I'm determined to go this fall or depending on my money situation the spring of next year. I have to, I have been working since the day I turned 15 to do this and it's also the reason I didn't go to school this year. Then I'll be back packing around Europe. I want to go to least 10 countries so I'll be there for prolly 7 or 8 weeks. When I get back... if I come back but where ever I decide to put myself down for 20 months, I want to go to Massage Therapy School. That is what I want to do to make a living. It's great money and it's something I'm very interested in. I could indeed see myself doing that for the rest of my life. When I'm done with school, I want to go work on a cruise ship. That way, I can travel and get paid. Save up enough money to live on my own and start my own business with massage therapy. And travel to see the world.
And that's all for now. As much as I change my mind, nothing is set in stone. But for some reason I feel like if i don't do this my life won’t be as great as I want it to be. But who knows... like i said this is what I want to do as of today. I have never really set goals for myself and I don't see it being a problem because it's something I want and need.
Never forget, live for today
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Thursday, October 7th, 2004
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So it's been a while from the last time I updated. I have been writing more in my real journal because it's not public and my thoughts seems to flow more on paper. Not much has really changed to be honest.
In the past week more has happened then I can remember. In fact, I'm sure a lot has changed I just don't keep track anymore...
I got a real job finally! I can't wait to start working and saving money for more tattoos. And pay off the countless amount of dollars that I owe my parents. It's going to be nice to finally get a schedule, and a weekly pay check. Things are some what falling into place. I'm pretty content right now. I'm excited to start school in January. Speaking of FUCKING JANURAY... Cassie is moving to Hawaii. I dont know what the hell i'm going to do with out having that girl in the same state as me. It's going to be hard not seeing my best friend everyday. There are definitely positive sides to her moving there though- she will probably hook me up with some amazing nugget and when ever i want to go to Hawaii I'll have a place to stay. I told her she has to wait for me to hike up any volcanos though.
What else, what else, what else. My stupid sister moved back home. She really makes me want to vomit every where (most of the time). I really hoped that we would start to form a better relationship now that we are older and can relate to things better.. but she is such a fucking cunt i cant stand it, it's not worth trying to be closer with her. Our relationship is so fake. It's hard to believe that we are related. Whatever. I don't hate her, but like i said it's so hard to think of her as my sister and not some stranger that lives with me. Home is such a weird place.
Still single... in 3 more months it will be 2 years. mmmm... yup. Not much more to say about that.
I think I'm pretty much done until I think of more to say.
Oh, one more important thing that I have to write down because I need to remember. The past two days I have smoked the most amazing buds that i have smoked in- forever. Not just one type, but three different kinds of bud that are mouth watering deliciousness. I'm talking about the good shit. It's variety season for marijuana lovers around town. For some reason the hook up right now is blazin. No haze, but thank you gerry berry, white widow, and some other shit that we had no idea what kind but it smelt like chocolate and got me high off one hit.
I love the fall.
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Tuesday, September 21st, 2004
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Just tell your parents it's a phase.
They'll understand.
M A R I J U A N A
Your anti-drug.
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Monday, September 13th, 2004
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I had the most awesome time in NYC this weekend. I hardly remembered that it was september 11th, it was my mothers birthday. We went out to a very expensive italian resturant called Nino's... dinner was almost 200 bucks. The food was blazin. We all felt a bit under dressed. My sister and I went out to a pub for the first time together and got so pissed. I met some awesome people, most of them were not from NYC. We were very drunk. Not as much as robyn though. She ran off with one of the bar tenders and i ran off to smoke pot with a guy who knows cool card tricks. He figured out I wasn't 21, he was the coolest guy I met all weekend. He played guitar for me and gave me his bands CD. When I came back to the bar, robyn was talking to a cop... the cop ofered to buy me a beer. I couldn't drink anymore or else my blood would have turned into Seirra Nevada (sp?). The bars close at 4am, it was 4:10. That's cool shit.
So the next morning my mom took a bike ride around all 5 burroughs of new york. 87 miles. she's insane. good for her though.
When I got back from NY is when i realized i need to stop talking to some old friends of mine. Their friendship is not something i need in my life if it is going to create panic and stress. it was horrible. and obviously if it dosen't mean anything to them if they can treat a friend like that and think everything is going to be okay. there comes a time in some friendships when it's just time to move on. this is one of those moments.
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Friday, August 20th, 2004
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I have no shorts. this is very fustrating because it's wicked hot out. I have about 10 bucks, and no gas. i need to get gas more than i need shorts. grr.
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Tuesday, August 17th, 2004
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Type your name with your:
nose: krissy
elbow: krissy
tongue: krissy
chin: kmrixsyh
feet: krrissy
eyes closed and one finger: krissy
back of your hand: krissy
palm: krissy
wrist: jkleriuoasdasyu
that was really fun. i think everyone should do that.
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Sunday, August 15th, 2004
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it seems like everyone came back from vacation today/yesterday. i wanna go on vacation. take me to jamaica. i have some money...who want's to go to jamaica???
i'm still fucked up from last night. goodness gracious.
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Tuesday, August 10th, 2004
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On Saturday Amanda, Jessica, and I went to get tattoos!
I got the astrological starts for Cancer... it looks like an upside down Y. I think it's super fantastic and i can’t wait to get more. Seriously, I can see this getting to be a very expencive addiction.
I have been reading a lot about astrology, and Chinese astrology lately. It's so crazy how right on that shit is. My sun sign is cancer, and what i didn't know is that my moon sign was Sagittarius. All of my relationship confusion makes so much more sense now that I read into Sagittarians traits. Every time I read something about a cancer it was saying how motherly and nurturing we are, when being attached to someone (unless jumping out of an airplane)is the last thing on my mind. And that's a Sagittarius. I'm not going to base my life around the zodiac.. I just think it's insane how right it is.
I'm not to excited about things with this girl anymore. I think it could have to do something with her being away for 2 weeks, or the more I talk to her the more I realize that she is not my type. Or both. I still think she's wicked awesome, but not for a girlfriend. I'd much rather have her for a friend, but then again I'd rather be anyone’s friend than girlfriend.
We will see.
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Thursday, August 5th, 2004
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I have been seeing this girl and she is so amazing. I can't beleive how good she makes me feel, and once again i'm scaring myself away. I dont know why I cant let myself feel attached to someone. After being single for a year and a half and not dating anyone, it feels so weird to have an emotion like this. I keep trying to convince myself it's okay to feel like this, it's a normal feeling that i see people feel everyday and they seem to be content. And it's alright to have someone else make me feel good rather than depending on drugs to lift my lonelyness. It would be really good for me.. I just have to take it slow. There is no rush to get into anything. This girl is so, so, so awsome and i think it could really work out.
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